I am so sad now. I really want to cry. I feel that I really want to cry. It hurts me a lot. Is God telling me about this person's true colors?

What would you feel when someone who is important in your life hurt you? Is this part of a revenge?

I try to accept your words with open heart and mind. I just let it be the way you want it to be. I am fine with this. Go ahead with that.

L.I.N.D.A

L

LOYAL, LOVING, LOVEABLE

  I

IMPRESSIVE, IMAGINATIVE, INTRINSIC

 

N

NATURAL, NEAT, NOVICE

 

 

  D

DELIGHTFUL, DEVOTED, DYNAMIC

 

 

A

ACTIVE, ADMIRABLE, ADVENTUROUS

 

  L.I.N.D.A

16.03.1982

Piscesian

 

 

Drama of the day.

Setting

20101007 (Thursday)

12.10pm-12.50pm

Classroom Form 5

Crowded

Characters

Teacher

31 students

Today's lesson was well-prepared and carried out perfectly as it had been planned. Students' participation demotivated me at all. Some were very responsive and some were giving me their polka-dots face. Some were on the ways to 'heaven' - slumbering. At this moment I really wanted to burst my tears. I could feel all the hard work is not paid off when only few who were interested listening to your explanation.The rest were happy entertaining their own hobbies - talking and playing.

"Class, I have to be frank with all of you. It is not my intention to put more stress to your life or pressure to your hectic schedule as excellent students. I have to mention this to all of you because I care of you. But I know, who am I to care of you? We are not brothers or sisters. But I can't deny myself from taking care of you all because I love all of you. I want all of you to be able to become a whole person in the future. SPM is around the corner! Please appreciate all the efforts given by your teachers. They want you to get flying colors in your coming exam. Please stop entertaining your sleepy eyes. You don't have enough time to play around and study at the eleventh hour".

Everyone was silent. I didn't know whether my words today were digestible. I didn't know whether my message today was delivered or pending or come to the worst, failed to deliver. 

I wish my heart is transparent so that they know how much I care of them. I must be strong till the end of this battle to make them realize that SPM is not a yes-no issue. I want them to know that SPM examination is the beginning of the future that they have to treasure in their life. 

Good luck to my beloved students. 

Lord...hear my prayer

I can only visit her world without any permission from her because both of us are not registered to each other. I can only see her through some of the pictures uploaded to her world. I can only see her children are growing up handsomely and beautifully from the world that she has now. Only God knows how much I miss her after all the living memory that we had woven in our life all this while. 

     If only we can turn back the time, what would we do to make this close-knit relationship remains forever? Would everything goes smoothly as we would like it to be? Would you and I can be shoulders to each other? Only God knows the answers to my doubt...

     Dear my beloved cuzzie. I always believe that anything happened, they happen for reasons...yet sometimes i can't believe it happens to you and I and I fail to see the reasons that cause this to you and I go astray. I wish I can turn back the time so that you and I are always like before. It's a great loss to me as you are no longer in my life. Only God knows how much I miss you...

     You are always in my prayer. I have a strong faith that one day God will listen to my prayer. I pray that we can rewind our living memory and make it better than yesterday. Let yesterday be the history. Let us forget the yesterday. Let us fill our hearts today with love. I will always wait for the day to come because I believe God will do the best plans for you and I.

You are always in my eyes....

My hubby's eyes when he sees me........

My eyes when i see him.........

(censored sentence completion)

Michael: Honey, I miss you.

Lynda: Hubby, I miss you too.

We have the same expression when we miss each other

03012008 in memory

He is my best friend because he is always there for me. During my ups and downs he will never let me alone leaving me with all the misery. He will talk nicely and cool me down so that I am not totally influenced by my own emotion. He gives advices on what I should do and vice versa.  He will listen to my problems lending me his ears and sometime he gives me his shoulder for me to cry on. Every time he hugs me and wipes my tears I will always thank God for sending me this person. The way he loves me makes me like a princess everyday. His honesty and sincere heart in accepting all my flaws are the values that I treasure the most. Knowing him more has given me the chance to love him more and more. It started from a simple text messaging where i cursed him a lot. But i never knew that the message has sparked the light of our love story. I wish I still can keep all the messages before...It was not easy to let other person comes into your heart when you ever failed in a relationship. But this person is totally different from what i have thought of before. He is the one who raises me up from all of my sadness and he asked me not to indulge myself in all the misery - past years misery. I believe God has sent me this person as my guidance to turn to a new leaf. I can feel God's love through this person. His presence is a miracle in my life.

All about myself....

It's been 'donkey ages' of not updating anything in my own blog. I ever promised to update this blog as frequent as i can, but time constraint is always my major problem especially when you are working in a new school where a lot of accomplishments to be concerned of; namely in academic and co-curriculum. this is only to name a few of it. beside my private life i have to juggle the hat everyday and most important is to juggle it wisely. due to this hectic life, sometime i tend to ignore (or the accurate word is neglect)my own time management. i just do everything that i want to do without looking at what i have planned. in the end, i don't do it. this is because i don't know where to start and how to start. i hate myself sometime as i fail to lead myself. this is not a very good attitude actually. i learn a lot from my husband especially when comes to time management. he plans his to-do activities nicely and put remark for everything he has done. i wish i can follow his way...i always say i wish...i never say i will be....that is linda...